Saturday night: had tea with my significant other (fair enough it was a McDonald's on a carpark, the height of romance, but lovely none the less); had a bath, finishing off the last of my stash of Lush Oxford Street Exclusives; did a quick tidy up; lit a candle (currently burning a lavender Yankee Candle, which is freaking beautiful and I usually bloody hate lavender) and now I'm sat emptying my head into this post whilst making my way through a bottle of Asti. It might not be the most exciting of Saturday nights, but it's not bad.
In fact, I was watching some old videos from one of my all time favourite bloggers, Hannah Gale (damn, that girl hits the nail on the head every time), and one of her videos from about 2 months ago really struck a chord with me. She was talking about those instagram-able quotes that you can get on notebooks and t-shirts and all sorts of other Pinterest worthy pieces. She said 'My life has been incredible, if only I'd noticed it sooner' and it couldn't be more true. My life may be far from where I'd hoped it might be, but it sure as hell ain't bad.
Am I 100% happy with my life? No, I'm not, but I'm trying to do everything I can do to get it even that little bit closer. Have I reached a state of career woman bliss? Nope, far from it actually, but I'm moving forward and taking control of my own path so that I can get to where I want to get to. Have one's significant other and I become '#relationshipgoals'? Probably not, and I'd love for us to really move forward with where our relationship is, but for now it's lovely- I've met someone that I adore, who's not an absolute bellend and who cares for me back. For now, that's good enough for me. Am I a stone heavier than I should be and about two stone heavier than I'd like to be? Sure as hell I am, but what can I say? Carrot cake is my friend and I'm not a quitter.
I have some amazing friends, an amazing family, a roof over my head, a fantastic job, alcohol in a really nice glass, I saw the most awe inspiring rainbow ever yesterday and slowly but surely I'm feeling just that little bit more adult.
More responsible. More empowered. More accountable. More inspired.
Being content is a good thing, it means that things are good, you'd be happy if they stayed the same. But the important thing here is that I'm by no means settled, I want to achieve big things, go to places I've never been to before, reach milestones with people that I didn't think I could reach (filthy minds out of the gutter), I do not intend to sit here and let life pass me by.
No doubt this year is going to through some real shit at me. But I'm counting on this year being the year that things turn around for this college dropout and I'm ready to do anything to make sure that 2016 is a year for big things.
Be content with life because life is good. But never settle- you might just surprise yourself.
Alls I can say now is: Come at me 2016. We got this.
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